2016 Resolutions??

I hope you had a great Christmas at that it was filled with lots of smiles and laughs. It's so sad that it all had to come to an end as does this year. 2015 went so quick! I didn't even have time to think of my new years resolutions and there's no time left now; another year is already on the way. Not that it would be much point though I hardly ever bother trying to fulfill my resolutions or think of any to begin with.

For 2016 I thought I'd do something different. Instead of lying to myself saying I'll do this I'll do that I'm just going to see how it goes and change little things along the way. It may not seem like it to me, but I know I am young and I have so much ahead of me. I'm starting to realise just how quickly time goes. So this year I'm not going to set myself resolutions. I am just going to enjoy myself.

These past 12 months have not been the happiest or the easiest. It seems that whenever I get a little bit of happiness and forget my worries it all comes flooding back in a matter of seconds. It's like I can never escape it... But I can change this, a little bit at a time. I don't need to escape my worries because it won't do me any good if I run away from every problem I face. All I need to do is solve it.

Now I've never stuck to a personal timetable: revision timetable, to-do list, it just doesn't help me and frustrated me. So new years resolutions are useless to me because I won't stick to it. Or I'll just forget it. So as I said, I'm just going to change things as it comes. If I worry about stuff in the future it sends me into a spiral of panic that most of the time involves me crying into my hands like tears will just send it away. So I don't want to make a fuss over something that I don't even have to deal with yet. Which will be hard considering all the pressure us teens have now about choosing a career path and working towards it. I think that whole idea is a waste of time. Most people aim for some sort of job, work their socks off to get the qualifications then realise it's not for them. Besides, of course I'm going to change career at some point.
1. I don't want to be stuck at the same place all my life.
2. A ladder is only so high and I have to stop climbing at some point (the career ladder if you don't understand)
and 3. We're always discovering new things and gaining new interests and aspirations. Although pressure like that does make me work hard especially towards my goals but it can get all a bit overwhelming at times and makes me want to quite everything. Which is not the attitude I want to be having right now.

So, that's what I want to work towards in 2016 - making my own decisions and changes little things as they come and stop worrying about the future and where I'll end up. And if that doesn't go to plan there is always help for those who need it. You just need to ask the right people.

Have a fantastic new year!!

All my love
Anna xx